Sunday, February 08, 2004
Dear Marcus Mirtul 26th The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
So the scouting idea didn’t work out. I forgot to send the eyes a head of myself. I hit a dead magic area and quickly fell into the water. After struggling to swim and got up to the surface I was able to use the ion stone to teleport back to the ship. Then the whole ship went through the dead magic zone as the storm threw us into it. The lack of magic apparently scared Lia a lot. Along with me. The idea of being in a area with no magic was frightening. Some of my stones that I keep on hand in the cabin went back to normal size. After seeking to repair the door and such we saw a ship in the distance. Knowing the ship name and the cargo it carried we decided it was best to avoid it. So we continued on our path seeking to avoid the ship. So continuing on with our quest to the area. So we encountered a Kraken which was killed in the following battle. After some time we encountered a tower in the sea. A mighty iron golem with the a trident. After removing it from our path we entered a tower. We met a man that looked like Zypher. Asking for help. It was quite weird as he quickly died. A creature without eyes attacked us. It appeared it was more after getting Zypher and getting away. During that battle I tried using my highest spell to turn it into glass and to watch it shrug it away then I tried spellfire. Neither seemed to work. I looked into the face of this creature and saw death. I accepted it and kept trying. I saw Tage come down with wounds from this creature. The fearless wild elf seemed even to not phase this creature. It stabbed me with a dagger and I remember calmly walking down the steps and quaffing a potion then pulling it out. Then it came down and it appeared to want its dagger. So I quickly put it on the teleport trigger and ran away. Hoping to find help somewhere. No longer able to effect this creature I hid like a coward. Shame then the anger at myself for not being more help. After it appeared the creature had left the area we rested a bit. Found this pen and ink then pulled out my own paper. There is writing on the paper but somehow I feel I should not read the private thoughts of the owner. I let it sit there keeping my attention elsewhere. I pondered my own mortality and let Dirk know my wishes about the villa in Calimport. I also let Sariah know about my spell books. I am hoping that her being a worshiper of some god that she would respect my wishes. I do not know if we will get off this tower. I expect so. After watching Lia fail at two scroll attempts I ponder if she did it on purpose or not. I should not let such doubts enter my mind. Yet I wonder why she did not have a read magic prepared. Being so used to study I always keep one prepared. I wasted a scroll to reduce everyone in size so we could fit within the teleport requirements. I cannot understand why anyone would use conjuration. I fear that someday she will try such a spell and get us in trouble. Also with her use of necromancy I wonder if I should have given her that book. I saw the power of one of the spells used in action and I do not doubt my decision in ignoring necromancy. I do wonder though if the consequences of my actions in being so generous that I would need to pay for it. I have so many questions yet none to turn to. I know I need to consult with someone but I question who I can trust. I wish you were here. Even if you were angry at me I imagine your intelligence and logic would win through and be able to give me some advice.
So the scouting idea didn’t work out. I forgot to send the eyes a head of myself. I hit a dead magic area and quickly fell into the water. After struggling to swim and got up to the surface I was able to use the ion stone to teleport back to the ship. Then the whole ship went through the dead magic zone as the storm threw us into it. The lack of magic apparently scared Lia a lot. Along with me. The idea of being in a area with no magic was frightening. Some of my stones that I keep on hand in the cabin went back to normal size. After seeking to repair the door and such we saw a ship in the distance. Knowing the ship name and the cargo it carried we decided it was best to avoid it. So we continued on our path seeking to avoid the ship. So continuing on with our quest to the area. So we encountered a Kraken which was killed in the following battle. After some time we encountered a tower in the sea. A mighty iron golem with the a trident. After removing it from our path we entered a tower. We met a man that looked like Zypher. Asking for help. It was quite weird as he quickly died. A creature without eyes attacked us. It appeared it was more after getting Zypher and getting away. During that battle I tried using my highest spell to turn it into glass and to watch it shrug it away then I tried spellfire. Neither seemed to work. I looked into the face of this creature and saw death. I accepted it and kept trying. I saw Tage come down with wounds from this creature. The fearless wild elf seemed even to not phase this creature. It stabbed me with a dagger and I remember calmly walking down the steps and quaffing a potion then pulling it out. Then it came down and it appeared to want its dagger. So I quickly put it on the teleport trigger and ran away. Hoping to find help somewhere. No longer able to effect this creature I hid like a coward. Shame then the anger at myself for not being more help. After it appeared the creature had left the area we rested a bit. Found this pen and ink then pulled out my own paper. There is writing on the paper but somehow I feel I should not read the private thoughts of the owner. I let it sit there keeping my attention elsewhere. I pondered my own mortality and let Dirk know my wishes about the villa in Calimport. I also let Sariah know about my spell books. I am hoping that her being a worshiper of some god that she would respect my wishes. I do not know if we will get off this tower. I expect so. After watching Lia fail at two scroll attempts I ponder if she did it on purpose or not. I should not let such doubts enter my mind. Yet I wonder why she did not have a read magic prepared. Being so used to study I always keep one prepared. I wasted a scroll to reduce everyone in size so we could fit within the teleport requirements. I cannot understand why anyone would use conjuration. I fear that someday she will try such a spell and get us in trouble. Also with her use of necromancy I wonder if I should have given her that book. I saw the power of one of the spells used in action and I do not doubt my decision in ignoring necromancy. I do wonder though if the consequences of my actions in being so generous that I would need to pay for it. I have so many questions yet none to turn to. I know I need to consult with someone but I question who I can trust. I wish you were here. Even if you were angry at me I imagine your intelligence and logic would win through and be able to give me some advice.
Dear Marcus Mirtul 26th The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
So we plan on passing by something known as Stillwater. I have agreed to be a scout and sent out to find out what is going on in the area. To search and find out why a large area of still water exists. Such a wonderful thing to study. I know I will be in danger. I have planned for a majority of problems. I know that if death comes it will be swift and I will be too enraptured in magic to notice it. The things I have planned for is that it is a dead magic area. I have a spell called Prying eyes that will warn me of that before hand. I was going to enlarge myself and fly out there. With some feather fall’s, water breathings, and a few lightning bolts. I even had Lia stick a teleport inside my ion stone. I prepared so much for it yet still my hand shakes as I write this. I worry that if I do die the group will come after and get themselves killed in the process. I have prepared spells for the scouting and some other spells to help me in this manner. Using the self altering spell to give my wings so I could fly for the day while I scouted. I have my effects in order. I wished for my spell books to go to the church of Azuth then give my villa to Dirk and Gwen. Perhaps with that they could raise a family there for I know I will never have the time for a family. I also prepared a message to be read if the group finds my personal wishes. Hopefully if death does come it is swift and painless. To sit here at the desk knowing it may be my last day. I know my deeds in life have been questionable. I would like to think that my deeds with this group has been for the cause of good. Azuth will judge me for my deeds and may my pursuit of magic and knowledge grant me a place in his realm.
So we plan on passing by something known as Stillwater. I have agreed to be a scout and sent out to find out what is going on in the area. To search and find out why a large area of still water exists. Such a wonderful thing to study. I know I will be in danger. I have planned for a majority of problems. I know that if death comes it will be swift and I will be too enraptured in magic to notice it. The things I have planned for is that it is a dead magic area. I have a spell called Prying eyes that will warn me of that before hand. I was going to enlarge myself and fly out there. With some feather fall’s, water breathings, and a few lightning bolts. I even had Lia stick a teleport inside my ion stone. I prepared so much for it yet still my hand shakes as I write this. I worry that if I do die the group will come after and get themselves killed in the process. I have prepared spells for the scouting and some other spells to help me in this manner. Using the self altering spell to give my wings so I could fly for the day while I scouted. I have my effects in order. I wished for my spell books to go to the church of Azuth then give my villa to Dirk and Gwen. Perhaps with that they could raise a family there for I know I will never have the time for a family. I also prepared a message to be read if the group finds my personal wishes. Hopefully if death does come it is swift and painless. To sit here at the desk knowing it may be my last day. I know my deeds in life have been questionable. I would like to think that my deeds with this group has been for the cause of good. Azuth will judge me for my deeds and may my pursuit of magic and knowledge grant me a place in his realm.
Dear Marcus Greengrass The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
So I finally finished my gift purchasing. For Cade I got him a nice little outfit. For Waylend I also got him a outfit. I could not think of anything else for them. For Cora the box of Torts was given. For Gwen I got her a outfit that allowed her to change her clothing at will. I figured this would be the most useful for her as she appears to enjoy lacking clothing. I also figured this would please Dirk. For Dirk I ended up buying him a dress so he could give it to Gwen. Apparently him and Gwen are getting married. Which I think should have happened a long time ago. Also in my communication with him I bought a ring for him to give to her. I am actually glad he asked me. There was a jeweler up in Neverwinter that I wanted to visit. He taught me that magic cannot duplicate hard work and talent. I went into his shop seeking gems to destroy as spell components. I came across a nice diamond ring that I was planning on buying to use the dust for a restoral spell. It was his anger that taught me the value of it. The ring was not crafted to be wasted in a spell. It was crafted to make someone happy. To show the commitment and love that the ring was given with. There are other diamonds to use for a spell. Some of them should not be used as thus. They should be cherished for a lifetime. So using one of my altering spells I entered his shop disguised. I did this so he would have his dream fulfilled as I doubt he would have sold me the ring if he thought I was going to destroy it. So I bought the ring to give to Dirk for his wedding. I also learned a lesson. It is surprising what I learned in a few days in Neverwinter. Such a wonderful town. I think if I purchase another home I will have to do it there. The temple is quite amazing and the people are so friendly. I spent some time there working with gems and helping out. I felt like I was back in the brotherhood again. It was really nice. I often pondered just staying there. There is a pressing need though to find this Cypher guy though. So back I came to a island in the middle of the ocean with natives that speak a weird tongue. This island were the wild Tage decided she was going to attack a shark. Over the course of a few weeks I have grown in power. My spell repertoire has grown considerably. While on leave I had bought a few scrolls to scribe into my book. I also spent a fortune on a traveling spell book and case for it. A simple locking spell book that is resistant to just about everything. With enough pages there to carry my spells I will use often and a few pages open for research and study. I carried my things to the ship and found out the ladies have the room with the desk. So I know it will be tough to get time at the desk to write and study. I could have it moved but perhaps one of the girls will use it too. I would rather it stay in hopes that someone will use it besides me. I feel grateful that my request was not questioned and they went though with it. So often I am afraid I will be a burden to the group. I also feel the sudden urge to show off my power. I think I let the time away build up my ego a bit much. I need to constantly remind myself that it was my ego and pride that separated me from my family. I also decided that the spell book I will give Lia will include that spell. I think it was not a good decision but I feel that she needs to make the choice herself. If I was wrong in giving her the spell then I feel I will have to be the one to pull her down. Should I suffer the same punishment that she does if she abuses the spell? I gave her the tools but she has to make the decision. I cannot make the decision for her. I hope that the spells I gave her and my friendship will get her to speak to me more often. So many things I wish to discuss. I also decided I will spend some time getting to know each person in the group. The passing of Raine and others make me feel that I should get to know them. They are worth knowing and they are worth saving. I hope I can make a difference in the final battle. With this group of such wonderful people I wonder who will save me when the time comes. If not then I will accept Azuth’s embrace and study with him until the end of time. Until the end of time brother.
-Sean
So I finally finished my gift purchasing. For Cade I got him a nice little outfit. For Waylend I also got him a outfit. I could not think of anything else for them. For Cora the box of Torts was given. For Gwen I got her a outfit that allowed her to change her clothing at will. I figured this would be the most useful for her as she appears to enjoy lacking clothing. I also figured this would please Dirk. For Dirk I ended up buying him a dress so he could give it to Gwen. Apparently him and Gwen are getting married. Which I think should have happened a long time ago. Also in my communication with him I bought a ring for him to give to her. I am actually glad he asked me. There was a jeweler up in Neverwinter that I wanted to visit. He taught me that magic cannot duplicate hard work and talent. I went into his shop seeking gems to destroy as spell components. I came across a nice diamond ring that I was planning on buying to use the dust for a restoral spell. It was his anger that taught me the value of it. The ring was not crafted to be wasted in a spell. It was crafted to make someone happy. To show the commitment and love that the ring was given with. There are other diamonds to use for a spell. Some of them should not be used as thus. They should be cherished for a lifetime. So using one of my altering spells I entered his shop disguised. I did this so he would have his dream fulfilled as I doubt he would have sold me the ring if he thought I was going to destroy it. So I bought the ring to give to Dirk for his wedding. I also learned a lesson. It is surprising what I learned in a few days in Neverwinter. Such a wonderful town. I think if I purchase another home I will have to do it there. The temple is quite amazing and the people are so friendly. I spent some time there working with gems and helping out. I felt like I was back in the brotherhood again. It was really nice. I often pondered just staying there. There is a pressing need though to find this Cypher guy though. So back I came to a island in the middle of the ocean with natives that speak a weird tongue. This island were the wild Tage decided she was going to attack a shark. Over the course of a few weeks I have grown in power. My spell repertoire has grown considerably. While on leave I had bought a few scrolls to scribe into my book. I also spent a fortune on a traveling spell book and case for it. A simple locking spell book that is resistant to just about everything. With enough pages there to carry my spells I will use often and a few pages open for research and study. I carried my things to the ship and found out the ladies have the room with the desk. So I know it will be tough to get time at the desk to write and study. I could have it moved but perhaps one of the girls will use it too. I would rather it stay in hopes that someone will use it besides me. I feel grateful that my request was not questioned and they went though with it. So often I am afraid I will be a burden to the group. I also feel the sudden urge to show off my power. I think I let the time away build up my ego a bit much. I need to constantly remind myself that it was my ego and pride that separated me from my family. I also decided that the spell book I will give Lia will include that spell. I think it was not a good decision but I feel that she needs to make the choice herself. If I was wrong in giving her the spell then I feel I will have to be the one to pull her down. Should I suffer the same punishment that she does if she abuses the spell? I gave her the tools but she has to make the decision. I cannot make the decision for her. I hope that the spells I gave her and my friendship will get her to speak to me more often. So many things I wish to discuss. I also decided I will spend some time getting to know each person in the group. The passing of Raine and others make me feel that I should get to know them. They are worth knowing and they are worth saving. I hope I can make a difference in the final battle. With this group of such wonderful people I wonder who will save me when the time comes. If not then I will accept Azuth’s embrace and study with him until the end of time. Until the end of time brother.
-Sean
Dear Marcus Tarsakh 9th The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
So the group decided they were going to travel on the high sea’s. They are heading to some island place to find a evil elf. This elf killed someone dear to Dirk and brought great pain to the group. They had planned on leaving quickly but in the need for some time to research I asked to be left behind. I plan on rejoining them. I found this wonderful spell that will teleport me to a gem when I need to go there. I feel sad that the desk that was installed on the ship will not be put to use for a month. Somehow I feel that none in the group find studying that useful. I extended my offer of staying behind to the beautiful elven mage Lia. There is something different with that lady. I know where her loyalties lie and I feel that gives me the advantage so I can easily predict what her actions will be. I had thought she would stay behind with me for study. We had bonded quite well in never winter. It was weird for a moment I thought that she could be someone I could care for. Sadly though I must never let her loyalties escape my thoughts. I still feel guilty that I spoke about it in front of some of the group before I spoke to her. I have not actually spoken to her about it either. I really should but I fear that violence will come of it. I like the idea of having a wizard to share spells with and the feeling comradeship as the other arcane caster is this wild elf sorcerer. Tage is almost unapproachable. Such a wild creature strong in both physical strength and magic. Also the other day a most curious thing happened. Before the group left on the boat I noticed yet again that I make the staff glow when I am near it. I remember identifying that staff for Rain before Lia got it. I know it uses the spell detect good. I always thought of myself as a good person but I did not light it up before. Now that I do I ponder how much of my view has changed since I encountered that staff. How much have I changed from when I left Calimport with the group that day. Now my journey has completed a circle yet I know I have grown. While the group is gone I have been spending some coin. I acquired a large amount of sapphire dust and have been using it to fund a few projects. I was originally planning on making a staff out of dust but after considering the amount of dust needed I decided I could not do such a thing. So I decided that I would arrive on the boat at green grass and to cheer up the crew I would bring some gifts. I have been pondering a gift for Lia. I was going to give her a spell book. In hopes to show her that friendship is there if she wants it. I have been pondering a spell I was going to copy into the book. It is beyond my power and will be for some time. I know she does not have access to it either. This spell the powerful Wish spell I now have a copy of it. When I hold my hand over the page I feel the power of it. I know what it can do and what it cannot do. I cannot change the past with it. I could perhaps alter the future. Such responsibility with the spell to. I was going to copy it into the spell book for her but keep wondering if that is a good idea. Would she weird the spell responsibly or would she abuse it for her own desires and her god. Such decisions. For the half ling Cora I commissioned a fellow wizard to make a magical box that creates Torts. She adores those things and as annoying as she is the fact that she maintains such cheerful attitude I find useful. It is hard to dwell over the dark past when she is around. Either a story about a pink dragon or something about a being locked inside a box. I wish I could maintain a outlook on life such at that. For Gwen I have not decided. I was pondering getting her a necklace but do not think Dirk would approve. Though she is beautiful Gwen is not someone I would like to be with. I fear though Dirk would take my gift of friendship the wrong way. Of all the people in the group he is the one I wish to keep as a friend the most. He is like a big strong brother that will protect you and help you along. If your too tired to walk he will carry you or help however he can. He carries the burden of love on his back though and sometimes it shows. Back in never winter I remember him leaving in anger. I wonder if he could survive without Gwen. This battle that will come up may take quite a toll and the only one who will gain is Kelemvor for many deaths will be the victors spoils. Then there is Sariah. I have no clue what exactly happened in her past but it seems to haunt her more than mine. The past few months have shown me very little about her. Aside from the fact that she likes to drink and often succumbs to her savage ancestry. The scalp she wears on her belt a solemn reminder that even though she is a women her roar can kill. I was pondering a knife for her. Something to help her in the future if she takes another scalp. I do not agree with the act but with my dealings with sorcerers I learned I should be tolerant of others views. I also decided to purchase a Villa in Calimport. I do adore the city. It is also nice to know in the back of my mind that I have a base of operations somewhere that I can go to study. I can also store some important books there. Also with my little spell book filled up and my other one a bit ragged I will invest in a new traveling spell book. Am pondering taking a trip to Neverwinter to visit the temple of Azuth there. To spend some time helping out in the church. I feel that I have done so little for it in the past few months. I imagine people would understand that I have been traveling and Azuth does not have temples everywhere. I try to mutter a prayer now and then but often find that my faith has been a bit lacking. I was shook up a bit in the past over the split in the brotherhood. I once even thought of converting and following Mystra. Ha. I laugh at myself now for I know she is tempting but I do not know how I could deal with the chaos. Though with Azuth there is order being on the road so much makes it hard to deal with. I wonder if I should try and commune with him and find out his views of such things. I doubt he would be happy for me to ask such a petty question. I will have to try and follow him more devoutly. I have been trying to spread around the use of magic. I have a spell that now lets me copy my spell’s with ease. I was going to make a few small spell books of transmutation spells and give them away to aspiring young mages. Perhaps even create a workbook of transmutation for the occasional sorcerer I encounter. I would have no clue where to start in that manner though. I often wish you were here. Even if you were to argue with me constantly your view would be heard. I have none to consult with here that I trust. I could ask Dirk but the magical arts he would not understand. I could ask Gwen but I don’t think she would understand either. I doubt I could hold Tage’s attention for more than a minute before the idea of pursuing a tiger or ferocious beast would distract her. Sariah I have no clue how to even approach her. Waylend I think would be easy to approach but yet still he lacks understanding of the Art. Lia I could ask but knowing her beliefs would keep me questioning anything she said. Even the mighty Cora with her worldly knowledge lacks the basics of arcane matters. Perhaps when I get on the ship I will have to spend some time with each person and get to know them better. I wonder if they ponder the same things about me. I sometimes feel that I am not a part of the group yet other times I feel I am. I think I spent too much time second guessing myself. I should just focus on the Art and Azuth. Things will fall into place otherwise. Until next time brother take care.
-Sean
So the group decided they were going to travel on the high sea’s. They are heading to some island place to find a evil elf. This elf killed someone dear to Dirk and brought great pain to the group. They had planned on leaving quickly but in the need for some time to research I asked to be left behind. I plan on rejoining them. I found this wonderful spell that will teleport me to a gem when I need to go there. I feel sad that the desk that was installed on the ship will not be put to use for a month. Somehow I feel that none in the group find studying that useful. I extended my offer of staying behind to the beautiful elven mage Lia. There is something different with that lady. I know where her loyalties lie and I feel that gives me the advantage so I can easily predict what her actions will be. I had thought she would stay behind with me for study. We had bonded quite well in never winter. It was weird for a moment I thought that she could be someone I could care for. Sadly though I must never let her loyalties escape my thoughts. I still feel guilty that I spoke about it in front of some of the group before I spoke to her. I have not actually spoken to her about it either. I really should but I fear that violence will come of it. I like the idea of having a wizard to share spells with and the feeling comradeship as the other arcane caster is this wild elf sorcerer. Tage is almost unapproachable. Such a wild creature strong in both physical strength and magic. Also the other day a most curious thing happened. Before the group left on the boat I noticed yet again that I make the staff glow when I am near it. I remember identifying that staff for Rain before Lia got it. I know it uses the spell detect good. I always thought of myself as a good person but I did not light it up before. Now that I do I ponder how much of my view has changed since I encountered that staff. How much have I changed from when I left Calimport with the group that day. Now my journey has completed a circle yet I know I have grown. While the group is gone I have been spending some coin. I acquired a large amount of sapphire dust and have been using it to fund a few projects. I was originally planning on making a staff out of dust but after considering the amount of dust needed I decided I could not do such a thing. So I decided that I would arrive on the boat at green grass and to cheer up the crew I would bring some gifts. I have been pondering a gift for Lia. I was going to give her a spell book. In hopes to show her that friendship is there if she wants it. I have been pondering a spell I was going to copy into the book. It is beyond my power and will be for some time. I know she does not have access to it either. This spell the powerful Wish spell I now have a copy of it. When I hold my hand over the page I feel the power of it. I know what it can do and what it cannot do. I cannot change the past with it. I could perhaps alter the future. Such responsibility with the spell to. I was going to copy it into the spell book for her but keep wondering if that is a good idea. Would she weird the spell responsibly or would she abuse it for her own desires and her god. Such decisions. For the half ling Cora I commissioned a fellow wizard to make a magical box that creates Torts. She adores those things and as annoying as she is the fact that she maintains such cheerful attitude I find useful. It is hard to dwell over the dark past when she is around. Either a story about a pink dragon or something about a being locked inside a box. I wish I could maintain a outlook on life such at that. For Gwen I have not decided. I was pondering getting her a necklace but do not think Dirk would approve. Though she is beautiful Gwen is not someone I would like to be with. I fear though Dirk would take my gift of friendship the wrong way. Of all the people in the group he is the one I wish to keep as a friend the most. He is like a big strong brother that will protect you and help you along. If your too tired to walk he will carry you or help however he can. He carries the burden of love on his back though and sometimes it shows. Back in never winter I remember him leaving in anger. I wonder if he could survive without Gwen. This battle that will come up may take quite a toll and the only one who will gain is Kelemvor for many deaths will be the victors spoils. Then there is Sariah. I have no clue what exactly happened in her past but it seems to haunt her more than mine. The past few months have shown me very little about her. Aside from the fact that she likes to drink and often succumbs to her savage ancestry. The scalp she wears on her belt a solemn reminder that even though she is a women her roar can kill. I was pondering a knife for her. Something to help her in the future if she takes another scalp. I do not agree with the act but with my dealings with sorcerers I learned I should be tolerant of others views. I also decided to purchase a Villa in Calimport. I do adore the city. It is also nice to know in the back of my mind that I have a base of operations somewhere that I can go to study. I can also store some important books there. Also with my little spell book filled up and my other one a bit ragged I will invest in a new traveling spell book. Am pondering taking a trip to Neverwinter to visit the temple of Azuth there. To spend some time helping out in the church. I feel that I have done so little for it in the past few months. I imagine people would understand that I have been traveling and Azuth does not have temples everywhere. I try to mutter a prayer now and then but often find that my faith has been a bit lacking. I was shook up a bit in the past over the split in the brotherhood. I once even thought of converting and following Mystra. Ha. I laugh at myself now for I know she is tempting but I do not know how I could deal with the chaos. Though with Azuth there is order being on the road so much makes it hard to deal with. I wonder if I should try and commune with him and find out his views of such things. I doubt he would be happy for me to ask such a petty question. I will have to try and follow him more devoutly. I have been trying to spread around the use of magic. I have a spell that now lets me copy my spell’s with ease. I was going to make a few small spell books of transmutation spells and give them away to aspiring young mages. Perhaps even create a workbook of transmutation for the occasional sorcerer I encounter. I would have no clue where to start in that manner though. I often wish you were here. Even if you were to argue with me constantly your view would be heard. I have none to consult with here that I trust. I could ask Dirk but the magical arts he would not understand. I could ask Gwen but I don’t think she would understand either. I doubt I could hold Tage’s attention for more than a minute before the idea of pursuing a tiger or ferocious beast would distract her. Sariah I have no clue how to even approach her. Waylend I think would be easy to approach but yet still he lacks understanding of the Art. Lia I could ask but knowing her beliefs would keep me questioning anything she said. Even the mighty Cora with her worldly knowledge lacks the basics of arcane matters. Perhaps when I get on the ship I will have to spend some time with each person and get to know them better. I wonder if they ponder the same things about me. I sometimes feel that I am not a part of the group yet other times I feel I am. I think I spent too much time second guessing myself. I should just focus on the Art and Azuth. Things will fall into place otherwise. Until next time brother take care.
-Sean
Dear Marcus Tarsakh 9th The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
So the group decided they were going to travel on the high sea’s. They are heading to some island place to find a evil elf. This elf killed someone dear to Dirk and brought great pain to the group. They had planned on leaving quickly but in the need for some time to research I asked to be left behind. I plan on rejoining them. I found this wonderful spell that will teleport me to a gem when I need to go there. I feel sad that the desk that was installed on the ship will not be put to use for a month. Somehow I feel that none in the group find studying that useful. I extended my offer of staying behind to the beautiful elven mage Lia. There is something different with that lady. I know where her loyalties lie and I feel that gives me the advantage so I can easily predict what her actions will be. I had thought she would stay behind with me for study. We had bonded quite well in never winter. It was weird for a moment I thought that she could be someone I could care for. Sadly though I must never let her loyalties escape my thoughts. I still feel guilty that I spoke about it in front of some of the group before I spoke to her. I have not actually spoken to her about it either. I really should but I fear that violence will come of it. I like the idea of having a wizard to share spells with and the feeling comradeship as the other arcane caster is this wild elf sorcerer. Tage is almost unapproachable. Such a wild creature strong in both physical strength and magic. Also the other day a most curious thing happened. Before the group left on the boat I noticed yet again that I make the staff glow when I am near it. I remember identifying that staff for Rain before Lia got it. I know it uses the spell detect good. I always thought of myself as a good person but I did not light it up before. Now that I do I ponder how much of my view has changed since I encountered that staff. How much have I changed from when I left Calimport with the group that day. Now my journey has completed a circle yet I know I have grown. While the group is gone I have been spending some coin. I acquired a large amount of sapphire dust and have been using it to fund a few projects. I was originally planning on making a staff out of dust but after considering the amount of dust needed I decided I could not do such a thing. So I decided that I would arrive on the boat at green grass and to cheer up the crew I would bring some gifts. I have been pondering a gift for Lia. I was going to give her a spell book. In hopes to show her that friendship is there if she wants it. I have been pondering a spell I was going to copy into the book. It is beyond my power and will be for some time. I know she does not have access to it either. This spell the powerful Wish spell I now have a copy of it. When I hold my hand over the page I feel the power of it. I know what it can do and what it cannot do. I cannot change the past with it. I could perhaps alter the future. Such responsibility with the spell to. I was going to copy it into the spell book for her but keep wondering if that is a good idea. Would she weird the spell responsibly or would she abuse it for her own desires and her god. Such decisions. For the half ling Cora I commissioned a fellow wizard to make a magical box that creates Torts. She adores those things and as annoying as she is the fact that she maintains such cheerful attitude I find useful. It is hard to dwell over the dark past when she is around. Either a story about a pink dragon or something about a being locked inside a box. I wish I could maintain a outlook on life such at that. For Gwen I have not decided. I was pondering getting her a necklace but do not think Dirk would approve. Though she is beautiful Gwen is not someone I would like to be with. I fear though Dirk would take my gift of friendship the wrong way. Of all the people in the group he is the one I wish to keep as a friend the most. He is like a big strong brother that will protect you and help you along. If your too tired to walk he will carry you or help however he can. He carries the burden of love on his back though and sometimes it shows. Back in never winter I remember him leaving in anger. I wonder if he could survive without Gwen. This battle that will come up may take quite a toll and the only one who will gain is Kelemvor for many deaths will be the victors spoils. Then there is Sariah. I have no clue what exactly happened in her past but it seems to haunt her more than mine. The past few months have shown me very little about her. Aside from the fact that she likes to drink and often succumbs to her savage ancestry. The scalp she wears on her belt a solemn reminder that even though she is a women her roar can kill. I was pondering a knife for her. Something to help her in the future if she takes another scalp. I do not agree with the act but with my dealings with sorcerers I learned I should be tolerant of others views. I also decided to purchase a Villa in Calimport. I do adore the city. It is also nice to know in the back of my mind that I have a base of operations somewhere that I can go to study. I can also store some important books there. Also with my little spell book filled up and my other one a bit ragged I will invest in a new traveling spell book. Am pondering taking a trip to Neverwinter to visit the temple of Azuth there. To spend some time helping out in the church. I feel that I have done so little for it in the past few months. I imagine people would understand that I have been traveling and Azuth does not have temples everywhere. I try to mutter a prayer now and then but often find that my faith has been a bit lacking. I was shook up a bit in the past over the split in the brotherhood. I once even thought of converting and following Mystra. Ha. I laugh at myself now for I know she is tempting but I do not know how I could deal with the chaos. Though with Azuth there is order being on the road so much makes it hard to deal with. I wonder if I should try and commune with him and find out his views of such things. I doubt he would be happy for me to ask such a petty question. I will have to try and follow him more devoutly. I have been trying to spread around the use of magic. I have a spell that now lets me copy my spell’s with ease. I was going to make a few small spell books of transmutation spells and give them away to aspiring young mages. Perhaps even create a workbook of transmutation for the occasional sorcerer I encounter. I would have no clue where to start in that manner though. I often wish you were here. Even if you were to argue with me constantly your view would be heard. I have none to consult with here that I trust. I could ask Dirk but the magical arts he would not understand. I could ask Gwen but I don’t think she would understand either. I doubt I could hold Tage’s attention for more than a minute before the idea of pursuing a tiger or ferocious beast would distract her. Sariah I have no clue how to even approach her. Waylend I think would be easy to approach but yet still he lacks understanding of the Art. Lia I could ask but knowing her beliefs would keep me questioning anything she said. Even the mighty Cora with her worldly knowledge lacks the basics of arcane matters. Perhaps when I get on the ship I will have to spend some time with each person and get to know them better. I wonder if they ponder the same things about me. I sometimes feel that I am not a part of the group yet other times I feel I am. I think I spent too much time second guessing myself. I should just focus on the Art and Azuth. Things will fall into place otherwise. Until next time brother take care.
-Sean
So the group decided they were going to travel on the high sea’s. They are heading to some island place to find a evil elf. This elf killed someone dear to Dirk and brought great pain to the group. They had planned on leaving quickly but in the need for some time to research I asked to be left behind. I plan on rejoining them. I found this wonderful spell that will teleport me to a gem when I need to go there. I feel sad that the desk that was installed on the ship will not be put to use for a month. Somehow I feel that none in the group find studying that useful. I extended my offer of staying behind to the beautiful elven mage Lia. There is something different with that lady. I know where her loyalties lie and I feel that gives me the advantage so I can easily predict what her actions will be. I had thought she would stay behind with me for study. We had bonded quite well in never winter. It was weird for a moment I thought that she could be someone I could care for. Sadly though I must never let her loyalties escape my thoughts. I still feel guilty that I spoke about it in front of some of the group before I spoke to her. I have not actually spoken to her about it either. I really should but I fear that violence will come of it. I like the idea of having a wizard to share spells with and the feeling comradeship as the other arcane caster is this wild elf sorcerer. Tage is almost unapproachable. Such a wild creature strong in both physical strength and magic. Also the other day a most curious thing happened. Before the group left on the boat I noticed yet again that I make the staff glow when I am near it. I remember identifying that staff for Rain before Lia got it. I know it uses the spell detect good. I always thought of myself as a good person but I did not light it up before. Now that I do I ponder how much of my view has changed since I encountered that staff. How much have I changed from when I left Calimport with the group that day. Now my journey has completed a circle yet I know I have grown. While the group is gone I have been spending some coin. I acquired a large amount of sapphire dust and have been using it to fund a few projects. I was originally planning on making a staff out of dust but after considering the amount of dust needed I decided I could not do such a thing. So I decided that I would arrive on the boat at green grass and to cheer up the crew I would bring some gifts. I have been pondering a gift for Lia. I was going to give her a spell book. In hopes to show her that friendship is there if she wants it. I have been pondering a spell I was going to copy into the book. It is beyond my power and will be for some time. I know she does not have access to it either. This spell the powerful Wish spell I now have a copy of it. When I hold my hand over the page I feel the power of it. I know what it can do and what it cannot do. I cannot change the past with it. I could perhaps alter the future. Such responsibility with the spell to. I was going to copy it into the spell book for her but keep wondering if that is a good idea. Would she weird the spell responsibly or would she abuse it for her own desires and her god. Such decisions. For the half ling Cora I commissioned a fellow wizard to make a magical box that creates Torts. She adores those things and as annoying as she is the fact that she maintains such cheerful attitude I find useful. It is hard to dwell over the dark past when she is around. Either a story about a pink dragon or something about a being locked inside a box. I wish I could maintain a outlook on life such at that. For Gwen I have not decided. I was pondering getting her a necklace but do not think Dirk would approve. Though she is beautiful Gwen is not someone I would like to be with. I fear though Dirk would take my gift of friendship the wrong way. Of all the people in the group he is the one I wish to keep as a friend the most. He is like a big strong brother that will protect you and help you along. If your too tired to walk he will carry you or help however he can. He carries the burden of love on his back though and sometimes it shows. Back in never winter I remember him leaving in anger. I wonder if he could survive without Gwen. This battle that will come up may take quite a toll and the only one who will gain is Kelemvor for many deaths will be the victors spoils. Then there is Sariah. I have no clue what exactly happened in her past but it seems to haunt her more than mine. The past few months have shown me very little about her. Aside from the fact that she likes to drink and often succumbs to her savage ancestry. The scalp she wears on her belt a solemn reminder that even though she is a women her roar can kill. I was pondering a knife for her. Something to help her in the future if she takes another scalp. I do not agree with the act but with my dealings with sorcerers I learned I should be tolerant of others views. I also decided to purchase a Villa in Calimport. I do adore the city. It is also nice to know in the back of my mind that I have a base of operations somewhere that I can go to study. I can also store some important books there. Also with my little spell book filled up and my other one a bit ragged I will invest in a new traveling spell book. Am pondering taking a trip to Neverwinter to visit the temple of Azuth there. To spend some time helping out in the church. I feel that I have done so little for it in the past few months. I imagine people would understand that I have been traveling and Azuth does not have temples everywhere. I try to mutter a prayer now and then but often find that my faith has been a bit lacking. I was shook up a bit in the past over the split in the brotherhood. I once even thought of converting and following Mystra. Ha. I laugh at myself now for I know she is tempting but I do not know how I could deal with the chaos. Though with Azuth there is order being on the road so much makes it hard to deal with. I wonder if I should try and commune with him and find out his views of such things. I doubt he would be happy for me to ask such a petty question. I will have to try and follow him more devoutly. I have been trying to spread around the use of magic. I have a spell that now lets me copy my spell’s with ease. I was going to make a few small spell books of transmutation spells and give them away to aspiring young mages. Perhaps even create a workbook of transmutation for the occasional sorcerer I encounter. I would have no clue where to start in that manner though. I often wish you were here. Even if you were to argue with me constantly your view would be heard. I have none to consult with here that I trust. I could ask Dirk but the magical arts he would not understand. I could ask Gwen but I don’t think she would understand either. I doubt I could hold Tage’s attention for more than a minute before the idea of pursuing a tiger or ferocious beast would distract her. Sariah I have no clue how to even approach her. Waylend I think would be easy to approach but yet still he lacks understanding of the Art. Lia I could ask but knowing her beliefs would keep me questioning anything she said. Even the mighty Cora with her worldly knowledge lacks the basics of arcane matters. Perhaps when I get on the ship I will have to spend some time with each person and get to know them better. I wonder if they ponder the same things about me. I sometimes feel that I am not a part of the group yet other times I feel I am. I think I spent too much time second guessing myself. I should just focus on the Art and Azuth. Things will fall into place otherwise. Until next time brother take care.
-Sean
Dear Marcus Tarsakh 5th The year of Lightning Storms, 1374
Today the group stopped in Calimport. It has been a while since I have been here. Feels like it was a few months ago. I think it was midwinter that I was originally sent out this way. I wonder what would have happened to me sometimes if my caravan never got attacked. Such a powerful worm that beast was. I remember still with sadness laughing at the death of the sorcerer that day. How young and innocent I was. Though it was not that long ago I feel I have aged a great deal since that day. Then I met this group of people who were interesting enough to keep me interested in them. When I finally got to my destination of Calimport I completely forgot about my duties. I should have reported to the temple quickly and let them know of the destruction of the caravan. I should have imminently went out with some brothers and recovered what we could. I should have done a lot of things but this group was so different. They had a powerful fighter with them who was huge. The elven ladies with them I had not seen anything more beautiful. Even the half-orc with her pride is attractive in a weird way. Between the whips, the swords, and the spears in this group I felt safe. To travel with them and see more of the world was a blessing. For the first time in a long time I was no longer worried about my past catching up with me. No longer was I thinking of meeting you at a weird hour and being forced to duel. It was my time I guess to leave the safety of the church. So I traveled with them. We ended up going to some weird place though a teleport after this one big guy attacked a drow wizard. I followed along because it was so different. The in this forest we went to we came across a town and there I met a fellow wizard who I felt would be welcomed in the Loom weaver group. I also had to deal with a sorcereress with power beyond what I have seen. It was those days that I got to know a member of the group and thought of him as a friend. It was those days I tried to no longer be in the background and to help where I could. Then the long travel across lands so far distant from home I don’t even know how to describe the measure of distance. The traveling town where I was to dual with a sorcerer and my friend killing that person. I remember the sigh of relief that I did not have to die that day. It was then that I realized my attitude did not help any. I needed to be more tolerant. I could treat a dark skinned elf the same as the half-orc but when it came to the sorcerer’s I felt anger build up. I realized that my flaw was in my arrogance and pride. The teachings of Azuth though is not that sorcerers are bad. The years I spent with the brotherhood had shown me one side of it. Azuth is so much more. Yet somehow I missed that. I was blind to the complete teachings. Prefering to hide behind my scowl and anger. Seeking a reason to strike back at those who I had deemed less. Now that I look back at it I realize I should be thankful to Azuth he protected me from harm. One wrong word to some powerful sorcerer could have ended in my death. I am also thankful that I did not sway from his teachings. I can imagine what evil gods would have loved to tempt me. The destruction that would have resulted but did not because Azuth did protect me. The teachings of his are wonderful. I often wish I could go back and sit with you. I know I was wrong. I would ask for forgiveness but know I will never achieve that. Perhaps on your day of Life-Gift I will send you a book of Azuth. The complete one. Not the Loom weavers propaganda. I see how I fell into that. I know though that man’s pride will keep them from seeing the error of their ways. I know I cannot sway them to what I know is now true. I know I will probably never fit in with my friends back at the brotherhood. Somehow I don’t think I would ever want to fit back in with them. I have found a new group that is interesting enough and like the cut diamond has so many different facets that filter light and is so beautiful from each angle. Know I think of you. Though you will never know it I wish things can be different.
-Sean
Today the group stopped in Calimport. It has been a while since I have been here. Feels like it was a few months ago. I think it was midwinter that I was originally sent out this way. I wonder what would have happened to me sometimes if my caravan never got attacked. Such a powerful worm that beast was. I remember still with sadness laughing at the death of the sorcerer that day. How young and innocent I was. Though it was not that long ago I feel I have aged a great deal since that day. Then I met this group of people who were interesting enough to keep me interested in them. When I finally got to my destination of Calimport I completely forgot about my duties. I should have reported to the temple quickly and let them know of the destruction of the caravan. I should have imminently went out with some brothers and recovered what we could. I should have done a lot of things but this group was so different. They had a powerful fighter with them who was huge. The elven ladies with them I had not seen anything more beautiful. Even the half-orc with her pride is attractive in a weird way. Between the whips, the swords, and the spears in this group I felt safe. To travel with them and see more of the world was a blessing. For the first time in a long time I was no longer worried about my past catching up with me. No longer was I thinking of meeting you at a weird hour and being forced to duel. It was my time I guess to leave the safety of the church. So I traveled with them. We ended up going to some weird place though a teleport after this one big guy attacked a drow wizard. I followed along because it was so different. The in this forest we went to we came across a town and there I met a fellow wizard who I felt would be welcomed in the Loom weaver group. I also had to deal with a sorcereress with power beyond what I have seen. It was those days that I got to know a member of the group and thought of him as a friend. It was those days I tried to no longer be in the background and to help where I could. Then the long travel across lands so far distant from home I don’t even know how to describe the measure of distance. The traveling town where I was to dual with a sorcerer and my friend killing that person. I remember the sigh of relief that I did not have to die that day. It was then that I realized my attitude did not help any. I needed to be more tolerant. I could treat a dark skinned elf the same as the half-orc but when it came to the sorcerer’s I felt anger build up. I realized that my flaw was in my arrogance and pride. The teachings of Azuth though is not that sorcerers are bad. The years I spent with the brotherhood had shown me one side of it. Azuth is so much more. Yet somehow I missed that. I was blind to the complete teachings. Prefering to hide behind my scowl and anger. Seeking a reason to strike back at those who I had deemed less. Now that I look back at it I realize I should be thankful to Azuth he protected me from harm. One wrong word to some powerful sorcerer could have ended in my death. I am also thankful that I did not sway from his teachings. I can imagine what evil gods would have loved to tempt me. The destruction that would have resulted but did not because Azuth did protect me. The teachings of his are wonderful. I often wish I could go back and sit with you. I know I was wrong. I would ask for forgiveness but know I will never achieve that. Perhaps on your day of Life-Gift I will send you a book of Azuth. The complete one. Not the Loom weavers propaganda. I see how I fell into that. I know though that man’s pride will keep them from seeing the error of their ways. I know I cannot sway them to what I know is now true. I know I will probably never fit in with my friends back at the brotherhood. Somehow I don’t think I would ever want to fit back in with them. I have found a new group that is interesting enough and like the cut diamond has so many different facets that filter light and is so beautiful from each angle. Know I think of you. Though you will never know it I wish things can be different.
-Sean
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Note this is not a real person's account. This is letters a Fictional character writes in a book to his brother. His brother more and likly hates him and would never respond to such. He does this though as a comfort. It is for a fantasy DnD game that I play on the weekends.
